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HEY ALL~ I know we are all busy~and getting a few minutes to blog is hard BUT  ”I” have a handicap.. yep, those pork link sausages at the end of my hand can not keep up with my thought in my head.. so of course my blogs suffer….
SINCE last week, when I joined I have done nothing amazing here, but what I have done is really become aware of my body, how as I sit here and type my elbows are hitting my “muffin tops” (as the kids say) and my kankles hurt from my socks cutting off the circulation… and when I  bend over to try to pull them up my chubby cheeks flop up over my lower eyelid~ NOT COMPLAINING just constantly observing and identifing what I want to change…. THIS weekend is prom and I will be doing “updos” for some of the most beautiful girls in the county~ MY FEET are going to be killing me ( because they have to support all of me all day long!)

MY sons are wrestlers……my older son is  SUPER SERIOUS wrestler~he is going to meet  ( and wrestle) Henry Cejudo (Olympic Gold medalist) this Saturday~ and going nuts preparing~ The reason I bring this up is that WRESTLING is a crazy weight nighmare ALL OF THE time… and I am constantly trying to make sure my son stays healthy and on task… I am currently reading a book on sports nutriciton and the “chemical” balances that our bodies need to loose weight, gain muscle and not fat, and maintaint that lifestyle….

AGAIN~ WE all know what we are supposed to do~ but WHAT I HAVE DISCOVERED is that I think I finally found that book that I can understand..

I am very good at keeping Rick together…now, I have to make sure I do the same for me….WHY haven’t I ever done or thought of this before??

I always try to build TOO many things into my day….. less is more…I am finding that true everyday…

LOVE ya all……have wonderful days~

WELL I wish that I could navigate this site better… there really is a lot of resources here…. I wanted to check in and say that I think I found my plan… I am going to

Buy the Ultimate Diet Log, and the Flat Belly Diet books.. and go from there.. I have been logging my foods daily since I joined last week.. and I have “seen” where my fat comes from.. HELL ~ as of now I am at 670 calories.. BUT 236 of those are carbs AND 306 ARE FAT~

I am going to go shopping for my books and do some reading, In the mean time, I am going to have to cook FOR MYSELF DURING THE DAY~

Let’s see what happens by tomorrow~

I have been here about a week, and nothing on my end has really changed… NOT GOOD……ISn’t it amazing how that by 9:00 am that anyone could be exhausted and so unmotivated to do anything else… BY the time I get the kids out the door and feed the barn  animals(which is not as bad as it sounds)COME Back in the house and pick up a million drinking glasses ( I feel like a barmaid) start the laundry, and check the business email.. then check in here… I AM HUNGRY and ready for a nap…..OH the details of mom life are much more invovled than I have time or energy to write about BUT YOU MOMS know what I mean… I am ( and I know you are too) constantly making sure EVERYONE is responsible to their commitments, goals and time frames…. WHY is it then, I can’t be responsible to mine? IS is because I do not have a strict regiment for me? PERHAPS I need a specific diet to follow..but which one.

THAT IS MY GOAL today…. get a plan.. I am starting with a shower~
Take care all~

NOR can I trust myself… I ate breakfast, did chores, raining so no walk, but need to clean the kitchen up now, and you know is in the kitchen besides stuff that needs to be cleaned?????

I need to be policed constantly…. REALLY! HOW amongst us is going to design the home eating monitor… I base my though on the home release prison montiors… I think there may be a market.

I really have a lot of positive things going for me….. I am just missing the “glue ” to get it and keep it together…

THANKS so much to everyone who commented on my last post..
I am not sure how to get from here to there online..so I apologise….
REALLY crabby yesterday,and to top it off.. My  (15 yoa) son’s doctor took one look at me and told me that I looked sick and should have a complete physical and blood work up IMMEDIATELY… NOW WHAT THE HELL does that mean?   SHE  has always mirrored my body shape and size and height.. she is actually a half in shorter than me!SHE looked great… lost easily 75 pounds since last year… I suppose she is telling me  that it is time….so last night I was very motivated and working hard all day… TODAY when I got finished with my barn chores, I had to sit down and eat something before I had to take my “medication” and realized that THIS is a problem…I have to eat enough so that the meds so I do not get that nauseated feeling in my gut~ SO I ate less, and well  I am sick as a dog…

I have to finish my barn chores then  get the boys to a wrestling tounament this afternoon ( and tomorrow & SUNDAY), so I best lay down and rest~

I DID get in my 10 acres walk before my “episode” so that is good.. even though I feel sick, I am positive that weight must go before the medications….. then I’ll really feel better~

I will miss you all over the weekend.. but on Monday… watch out!

I do not want to whine like a baby today, but I am crabby! Maybe because I have been “dieting all day” WE really do share some common problems, and we have to figure out what works for us. NOW I realize it has only been three days.. but I feel I am constantly trying to figure out what it is that I can do. WE all know the “right & simple” answer, but trying to get that into our wild lifestyles is something else, I NEED  ( maybe we all do too) to pinch off a peice of our day just for me, and remove toxic people and situations that sabotage our lives. SO what do we do about it? HOW can we really motivate each other?

WELL they (whoever they are) say if you do it 21 times correctly & consistantly~ it becomes a habit. SO I ACTUALLY walked around a 10 acre park today… thought I was going to die! THEN it occured to me I am really worse off than I ever thought~  most of the time when I feel like that I reach for a beer ( really a  REGULAR Classic Coke, as I do not drink)~ But I was so tired all I could think about was forcing myself to get my butt here to document the milestone! Yeah, my kids would think I have fallen off my nut for sure~ I give them flack for their Facebook ~ ANYHOW I conticnued to try to figure this website out… and well, I am figuring when I am down to my goal weight I will finally get it….and I can live with that…  THE weather is supposed to be nice tomorrow.. I am thinking I will drag the horse around my trail… she will be so happy that I am not riding her!

WELL I am so overwhelmed~and the excersice that I am getting surfing all over thsi site is REALLY NOT helping~NOW WHAT DO I DO~ just keep swimming swimming swimming~reading and searching and lurking around…